I love the Lord, for He heard my voice

When I was about 19 I saw Jesus after I had taken some hallucinogenic
mushrooms (drugs). I had also been smoking cigarettes, marijuana, and
drinking beer. I had been doing these things for some years, and I was
really heavy into pornography also. The night I saw Jesus, though, none
of the drugs were working; I just wasn't getting "high". Then I heard
a voice say, "How are you?" I thought it was God, and it made me
happy. Then I heard Him ask me again, "How are you?" My joy of hearing
God's voice turned to anger as I thought about all the bad things I had
been doing (the things I felt like He had even been telling me for months
to quit!) Finally He asked me a third time, "How are you?" I could
only hope He would have mercy as I finally replied, "Well, You're here."

Then I closed my eyes and waited to see if He would rebuke and
pronounce judgment on me, or if by some undeserved compassion He would have
mercy on me. Then I saw a man's face which was so bright that He was
shining! He had the biggest smile I had ever seen and His hair was
like white fire! His eyes were shining, too! At first I felt like I
had seen Him before somewhere, but I just didn't recognize Him. Then I
realized it was Jesus. I opened my eyes and was amazed. I didn't know
what to say. Finally, He spoke again and said, "I just wanted you to
know that I love you and I live in your heart." (I had asked Him to come
into my heart when I was six years old. Then I immediately remembered
this Bible verse:

"Do not think it strange when they are offended
that you don't dive into the same idolatrous carousing..." (1Peter 4:4)

After I heard that a friend walked in and offered me some marijuana- I
told him no and he said he was offended. I was amazed again. One week
later I went to a party and ended up "diving back into the same
idolatrous carousing" as I had been into when Jesus came to me (the week
before). Drugs, cigarettes, pornography, and getting drunk. That night
after the party I felt so bad. I felt so empty after the drugs wore
off and the "high" went away. I felt like there was no hope for me and
that I had committed the unpardonable sin. Then I read Romans chapter 8
in the Bible and decided to walk back to God and try to do it His way

I felt forgiven after that and the shame was gone. I've been
free from the drugs and pornography ever since. Just because I knew that
God loved me and would still live in me even after all my sins. God
loves you, too!! I was very stubborn, but God came to me answered my
prayer for help to get free from the drugs and pornography!

Psalm 116:1-2- "I love the Lord, for He heard my voice; He heard my
cry for mercy. Because He turned His ear to me, I will call on Him as
long as I live."

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